Friday, December 31, 2010

525,600 Minutes

How do you measure a year in the life?

In truths that he learned
Or in times that he cried
In bridges he burned
Or the way that he died

The radio silence of late is but a natural consequence of the black hole I fell into shortly after my last entry. Nothing could escape it - not light nor sound. I suppose one can only hope that if the gravitational forces do not tear you apart, then black holes are indeed nothing but huge rips in the fabric of space-time. Or swirling tunnels that will eventually spit you out on the other side - wherever that may be.

It was not at all a bad year, but I do believe this was my unhappiest Yuletide season to date. Not just your garden-variety Christmas blues; more of a profound existential break that, alas, has produced anomie instead of epiphanies.

But then again, not all Christmases can be bright.


May the explosions tonight herald that the end to my own implosion is in sight. Because I don't think I can endure another 525,600 minutes of this gaping bleakness.

And as for you, blog friends, followers, and foes, may your own New Year be bright.

And now to all, a good night.


  1. Rudie, I have been worried about you.


    p.s. I'm coming home. Umayos ka.

  2. ruuuuddeeee!!! happy to see that you're back. but not quite yet i see. and for that we your friends feel for you. i hope brightness of the new year can dispel the darkness that you're in. i hope the turn of the clock gets you unstuck. and all of us together can enjoy a better year :)

  3. foes?

    hmmmm... hope you're okay rudie. you've been missed.

    Happy New Year!!!

  4. happy new year, rudie. do try to welcome 2011 with a bang.

  5. Happy New Year, Rudeboy. Hope everything will be fine, soon as possible. :)

  6. ah, my friend, lift your cloak of gloom and doom even for just this one night. everything passes, including this unhappy season.

    *tight hugs*

  7. I am simple obsessed with this song. Can so relate to it.
    Don't worry, we all have our ups and downs but the thing about humans is we are very resilient and optimistic by nature.
    Everything will fall into place eventually. The universe doesn't fail. Happy New Year! :-)

  8. Just remember, when you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand. You've got a friend.

  9. Nice to see you back, rudeboy. And I hope your shadows fade soon enough.

  10. happy new year rudeboy. hope everythingswell

  11. Another time, another place.
    The words would only rhyme, we'd be in outerspace.
    It'd be another sing, we'd sing another way...